Archive for February, 2002

finally finished printing the dumb thing
(my printer wouldn’t work properly)

3:00 am
yaay

now a brief respite
before i continue onward with chem

i am going to be half asleep while i write that fermat thing
(watch me guess all the answers … and fail miserably…)

my chem test is more important…

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i decided to post my english opinion piece here…
don’t ask me why…

The occurrences of the play have evoked contradictory emotions within me concerning the character of Macbeth. For one, the Great Bard has through his words caused me to feel pity and sympathy for the man. Yet moments later I must feel disgust at this personality, a man no more. It is definitely not easy to maintain a constant view against or for this worthy thane turned undeserving king.

As one reads through Act I and the early components of Act II of the Scottish Play, one cannot help but to feel compassion for the main character. He is thrown into a situation that many of us are, as well. He must contend with temptation and patience. He is put in a position where he can have it all, but he must do an evil deed to achieve it. Constantly he mulls over his predicament, always fearing the outcome, eternally unwilling. “He’s here in double trust; First, I am his kinsman, and his subject, Strong both against the deed; then, as his host, Who should against his murderer shut the door, Not bear the knife myself,” quoth the befuddled Macbeth. It is apparent that his very inner being is restricting him from this action, his inherent nobility is stopping him from proceeding upon this murderous path. This man is now admired, now respected, have we not all been in his position and chosen the easy way out: to proceed with the crime and reap the (short-lived) benefits? Yet he now restrains himself, and we understand him, and thus entirely respect him. Not only this, but he moves on to declare against the wishes of his very wife, “We will proceed no further in this business…” Yet the Lady persists, acting like a Biblical Eve to her Adam, seducing him to sin. We can understand the predicament that this unfortunate Lord finds himself in, we have all been there in one capacity or another. Thus, I felt now pity for him, and hoped that he would be able to resist the ceaseless whisperings of evil. This feeling was short-lived, though, for soon thereafter one is compelled to feel disgusted by the conduct of Macbeth.

Macbeth’s dastardly deed and his conduct following this act is enough to make mine a feeling of contempt and dislike toward him. He no longer deserves the pity or compassion of any person. He rightly spake that if he were to rest as he was he “may become a man, Who dares do more, is none.” The Misfortuned Thane goes on to do more, and indeed robs himself of his humanity. It is not only this act that adds to the loss, but moreover the conspiracy against the King’s guards is also particularly repulsive. These men committed no crime greater than to let their guard down through their drunkenness, nevertheless, no murder did they commit. The Lady and the Lord frame the poor men, and to add injury to insult, murder them, as well. Macbeth, acting as corrupt judge, jury, and executioner of innocents takes away their lives. Not a moment does he give them to explain their case to the others, at the very least. Furthermore, the two conspirators partake in explicit implicity, lying through their teeth to display false emotions to appear purely innocent: “Who can be … Loyal and neutral, in a moment?” he asks. Loyal? Having just barbarically murdered the King – the only one with whom his fidelity should be aligned, Macbeth claims to be loyal. Neutral? Blaming the innocents and then barbarically murdering them, as well. Nay, Macbeth is neither loyal nor neutral! In a modern day court, we could indict, convict, and imprison him for triple-murder, virtual perjury, and larceny (of the throne), among other heinous crimes. All the pity that I had has now vanished and I look upon Macbeth with repulsion and distaste. It seems all his nobility has disappeared completely, having once been “full o’ the milk of human kindness” he has now been sucked dry and been filled with evil instead. His arrogance and his impure ambition have rendered him undeserving of any pity or sympathy. Certainly, I am not one who shall feel such things for him anymore. Rather, I feel that he is now worthy only of scorn and disapprobation.

Thus, perhaps my self-dissenting views concerning the personality of Macbeth have come to light. Though I once felt sympathy and compassion for him, his very own actions left me recoiling, feeling shocked. It is not easy to sort out my opinion(s) pertaining to Macbeth, but the current contradiction rests settled, somewhat.

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i have english work
and a chem test tmw

i think i spent all my english effort on the first two paragraphs

my chem test i must study for desperately

i shall bomb that fermat math thing (tmw morning)
(doesn’t count for marks and i’m not looking to get into waterloo, thank God)

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i don’t have much to say

other than this guy misspelled ‘dictionary’
that’s ironically funny…

and he’s giving out his phone number online
even i’m not that desperate…

i have no idea who he is…

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No(w I’m a believer…)

wee haaw

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now i’m a believer!!!!!

WEEEEEEE HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAW!!!!!

life rocks

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hourra

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this is the second time i’m translating this
(the first time, i didn’t save it)
so anyone who saw the first one, forgive me if there are discrepancies
(and i don’t know if this is accurate, either, it’s the best of my ability)
😉

don’t get mad at me
if i tell you,
that i’ve lost myself
in your eyes

don’t get mad at me
if i tell you,
that i’ve lost myself
in your eyes

whether you know it
or you don’t
whether you accept it
or you don’t
you’ll never find anyone
as crazy about you as me

will you remember me
if i’m not here?
don’t get mad at me
if i tell you

my craziness shall never lessen
no matter how much you protest
nope
my craziness shall never lessen
no matter how much you protest

whether you talk to me
or you don’t
whether you look at me
or you don’t
i’ll even accept it
if you stop meeting me

all of your protests
i shall sustain with laughter
don’t get mad at me
if i tell you

there are thousands of waves
in the river of love
whoever’s sunken in them
has succeeded

there are thousands of waves
in the river of love
whoever’s sunken in them
has succeeded

high or low
low or high
low or high
high or low
i’ll see how i don’t
throw myself at your feet

if i flow away
with these waves
don’t get mad at me
if i tell you

whether you know it
or you don’t
whether you accept it
or you don’t
you’ll never find anyone
as crazy about you as me

don’t get mad at me
if i tell you,
that i’ve lost myself
in your eyes

don’t get mad at me
if i tell you,
that i’ve lost myself
in your eyes

– 1942: a love story

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i’m home from school
(half-day at school today)
i have an hour and a half to go before i go back
because then we go to another school
for my game (reach for the top)
wee haa
i really don’t want to go
i’m going to pray
and then sleep
for an hour
then i’ll go back to school

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cat stevens, my man, comes through again…

’cause if i laugh
just a little bit
maybe i can forget the chance that i didn’t have
to know you
and live
in peace
in peace

oh yeah

’cause if i laugh
just a little bit
maybe i can forget the plans that i didn’t use
to get you
at all
with me
alone

oh yeah
yeah

’cause if i laugh

’cause if i laugh
just a little bit
maybe i can recall the way that i used to be
before you
and sleep
at night
and dream

oh yeah

’cause if i laugh
baby, if i laugh just a little bit…

oh yeah…

– cat stevens

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