i have exams next week
\neight exams
\nmost people don’t
\ni have a big courseload
\nmost people don’t
\ni’m barely studying
\nmost people are
\ni don’t know how i ever end up passing these things
\nwith the marks i do get<\/p>\n
i don’t think i deserve them
\ni know people who DO deserve them
\nbut don’t get them…<\/p>\n
there’s this thing in our school, “principal’s scholars” — the top 15 or so students in each grade
\nsince i got into highschool
\ni ended up on the list every term
\nand i always “joke” that they “put me on by mistake, again”
\nbut i’m serious<\/p>\n
i think there’s people out there who deserve it much more than i do
\nfor goodness sake, i ask THEM for help when i’m stuck
\nthey DO deserve it
\nbut they don’t get it<\/p>\n
life is suck, in that way
\npeople who deserve stuff don’t get it
\npeople who don’t end up getting it<\/p>\n
then there’s people who try to reassure me that i do deserve it
\nbut i disagree, quite frankly, for reasons already expressed<\/p>\n
life is suck<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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